I don't know why I do this to myself. I get overly emotional about the smallest things, cry about them, and then I'm fine the next morning. I guess it's good that I'm getting everything out, but why do I constantly have to go through this routine? Maybe going through it a little more will help me understand something along the way. I don't know what it could be, but maybe there's something I'm supposed to come across. I hope I do find at least one thing though, no matter how big or small, just something. I don't want all of this to be for nothing.