Today feels good, thank God!

Woke up late this morning which always sucks :\ but then my Tai Chi class was just watching a movie. To make it even better? He just canceled the final all together :D (I have massive stage fright, so the fact that I didn't have to 'perform' in front of my class it awesome!) I'm caught up in school and to top off this wonderful day, I get to hang out with my best friend! We always have so much fun together (:

I couldn't be happier that I'm feeling better now, no more crazy mood swings!

CupKay's Holiday Giveaway! :D

Do you like holiday-themed gifts? Do you like pouches to hold all of your trinkets? If you do then you should DEFINITELY check out CupKay's Holiday Giveaway! (Even if you don't, someone on your Christmas list might!) The holiday pouches in this giveaway are absolutely adorable too! Everyone should make sure to check out her site and enter the giveaway for a chance to win two of them!

You have until Monday, December 6th - so go check it out! :D

On a happier note

HAPPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!

I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH :)

Thank you for all you've done for me over the years, everything has meant the world! I'm so grateful to have such a wonderful Grandpa who is there for me like you are!

Can't sleep..

So I'm blogging. I don't even know what to write about though. It's amazing how a day can go from being so good to pretty stupid so fast though. I mean, really? One of the most frustrating things is when adults don't act like adults. Grow up already. I'm done putting up with this though. I'm going to find a way out. At least I have Nick, I don't know what I'd do if I didn't.

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Happy Thanksgiving!

 

Happy Thanksgiving :D! I can't believe that it's already here. In some ways though, it seems like we should have already had this wonderful holiday. Nick and I are celebrating our 21 month anniversary today as well, how awesome does that make today? :) I can't wait to see all of my family. I get to have an early dinner with my family over at my grandparent's place, and then Nick and I are heading back to his house for a dinner later this evening! I'm going to be completely stuffed. Hahaha. I wasn't really in charge of making anything this year, but that's probably because my sister is definitely the cook in our family. I've gotten to take a ton of pictures though! That part sort of turned into my job. I'm so grateful for everything I have, all of my friends and family, and Nick too! I don't know what I would do without all of my close loved ones, they are there for me through everything, when I ask and even when I don't. So to all of you, thank you so very much! To the rest, I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving holiday, no matter what you do to celebrate :)

SNOW!

 

I cannot believe that it snowed! I mean I know the weather channels have been saying that we'll get snow, but holy cow, not this much! It's been fun though (: I've gotten to snuggle up with Nick and watch holiday movies, do some holiday baking with my mom and sisters, and have some awesome sleepovers :P With all of this snow though, I can hardly believe that Thanksgiving is tomorrow and it's not closer to Christmas! Either way, I've been extremely thankful that I only lost power for about an hour Monday evening. I don't know what I would have done in the cold :\

 

My least favorite part about all of this weather though? The wind! It makes it so hard to go and play out in the snow. It's mostly ice now, but I was able to get a few good pictures before it became unbearable. This was my first time playing with Isabelle in the snow too :D she is usually in Hawaii for Christmas (lucky little girl!) so it was awesome for me to have her over and spending all of this time for me! It's supposed to snow more tomorrow too, from what I've heard? Let's hope that it's nothing too crazy! I'm supposed to go to my cousin's wedding on Saturday, if they have power.. Eeep!

Awesome.

I love when people tell you that they trust you, so in return you trust them, just to have them go behind your back and ruin things. Seriously? If you're going to to tell everyone what I talk about, then why the hell do I even bother? This is just another reason for me not to trust those outside of my "bubble", if that's what I'd even call it. Can a bubble consist of only two people? That's about how many are in mine right now, maybe some more give or take the situation. It's even worse when they don't tell you that they've said anything or you find out from the other person who now isn't talking to you. Whatever, I'll stick to my two. At least I know they'll always be there for me.

Holiday Rice Crispy Treats!

 

My four, almost five, year old sister and I made and decorated rice crispy treats with our mom today! Isabelle loves just about anything that deals with sugar so she was thrilled (: The cut-outs consisted of angels and snowmen and were "dressed" as just about everything imaginable! We made all different kinds of angels - gingerbread looking ones, bikini-wearing ones, and even a supermodel one! :P It was a lot of fun and I loved getting a head start on all of the holiday festivities!

Boots, Scarves, and Snow ..

 

Oh my! Just a few of the wonderful things that come with the season change :) I'm usually not a huge fan of fall and winter due to the harsh cold weather and all of the wetness, but this year I'm ready for it! I love the crunchy leaves on the ground, the air feeling crisp, and I'm actually ready for the snow! I'm embracing it all :) [I just really hope there's not enough snow to get me stranded, that part is always terrible!] I can't wait for the holidays and all of the cheerfulness that comes along with them! Making presents for everyone this year is part of why I'm so darn excited, too! :D I just wish I could take some awesome pictures. Maybe I'll try with my little point-and-shoot :P

Happy holidays! :D

Coffee, coffee, coffee!

I had actual coffee earlier today with my momma, not the Starbucks kind!
It was delicious but mixed with no food today is definitely not a smart combination!

I'm so jittery and shaky right now, I should really eat something
:P

Current goal: A nice camera!

I have decided that I desperately want a camera. Not the little Nikon Coolpix digital one I have now (although I do love my little camera), but a really really nice one! I have no clue as to where I would get the money for it though. Maybe a birthday present to myself? :) I've got awhile to save up until then, so who knows! I miss photography though. I might not take the best pictures in the world, but something about just getting to use it for whatever I want and all of the cool tricks that come along with a nice one! So for now, that is my personal goal :) to buy myself a nice camera!

Which brand is the best though? Nikon or Canon? Those are the two that I see most often. Help, please :)

Holiday Recipes

I love all of the food that comes with the holidays!
What I'm really looking for though is a recipe for Eggnog Bark..
like the Peppermint Bark, yaknow?
It's Nick's favorite and I want to surprise him with it!

Anyone know of a good recipe?
The Eggnog bark is what I'm really looking for,
but feel free to share any that you have :)

Love bug and Love bird

I don't know how these names started, but they've managed to stick. Nick and I have "matching" nicknames for each other, and these just happen to be one of the million. I love him with all of my heart, and everything in the world that I have. I'm so thankful for him and all that he does for me :) I know I don't deserve most of it, but he's still always there for me. It's so amazing to me how long we've been together and I can't wait to see what the future holds for us!

What makes it even more awesome is the comments we get from other people, just about how we've been together for so long and how happy we look together. Comments like those may be corny and cheesy to some people, but I love hearing it all. The fact that so many people notice how long we've been together amazes me :) Even his best friend talks about it. Apparently we're the only couple he knows that's been dating for as long as we have, and are still this happy! (Thanks, Alex).

Anyways, he makes me happy and I love him. I always will! :D

Hmmph

I'm not sure what's up with today.
I just feel weird :|

I really don't like this feeling.
This is becoming all too regular for me.

Oh well, off to shop for more supplies!
I'll be keeping busy with making Christmas presents tonight.
Maybe even some Scott Pilgrim with Nick :)

Peppermint Mocha

 

My day has already been made :)

I love when Nick surprises me with things. Especially just as I'm waking up!

What could be better than waking up to a kiss from your boyfriend, 

then him handing you Starbucks!

I love him, with everything I've got <3

and not just because he brought me coffee :P

Blogging? Yes please.

The more I've been blogging lately, the better I've been feeling. Maybe it's just because I can write whatever I want in here, whenever I want. I don't have to please people, stick to a certain topic, address things specifically or even clearly for that matter. It's all just for me. Those of you who want to read this and follow it, awesome. I hope what I write entertains you to some extent. For those of you who don't, still awesome. Like I said, this isn't for anyone other than myself.

I love the feeling of doing something I used to. I used to go out with friends on a regular basis, I used to be the social butterfly. Now I stay at home a majority of the time, or I'm over at Nick's. For a while that was perfectly fine with me, but as soon as he leaves for work and I'm home alone, it's terrible. Sometimes I can manage to come up with things to do, and lately I've been getting better. But there was that period, where as soon as he left, I was done. I hated to be home without him, anywhere without him really. But anyways, back to my point. I love being creative and crafty like old times. Writing whatever I was feeling, and focusing on what I want to accomplish in life.

I had a really nice talk with Alexa again tonight, and we talked about our futures. What we want right now, how we hope it goes, and where we'll end up. It was nice to just be happy like old times. To have a best friend to talk to for hours. To get back into my craftyness. To feel included, not because it was necessary, but instead voluntarily.

I could get used to this. These whole "I'm feeling good again" types of days (:

Five Years Later

 

There is so much that can happen in five years. People grow up, fail, succeed, make mistakes, learn lessons, and about a million more things that some experience and others don't. No two people are ever the same. Time changes them, along with experiences and the people they encounter. I can personally say that I am nowhere near the person I was five years ago, when Alexa and I were still good friends and hung out more frequently. But put us together five years later, with no contact in between, and we're still friends like we used to be! We still share stories about our lives, and we still take pictures (This time they're with a nicer camera though, and we're not dressed like gangsters :P) We have deeper conversations and a better grasp on what we want to get out of life. I am truly grateful to have come back in contact with her this past year. We've only hung out twice, but it's nice having someone to talk to. I don't have the best luck with friends, I have those that I'm close with and those that I'll hang out with, but no one that I'm really "best friends" with. Until now, that is. She's not judgmental or hypocritical, she's human. She listens and understands that people have flaws, but that's what makes them all unique. We haven't exactly had the type of conversation where I would be able to experience all of this from her first hand, but I can tell that if I ever did need to go to her with something, she would be there for me, in all of the right ways possible.

Giving

It amazes me how powerful giving is. Lately, that is absolutely all that has been on my mind. What am I going to give everyone for Christmas? How can I give more? Today, I had that question answered. There is a homeless man that has been standing at the bottom of my street everyday for the past week or so, holding a sign like all the others. Something about this man stood out to me though. I'm not sure what it was at all, but for some reason he stood out to me. This is where I come in. Yesterday I was on my way home from class, and as I was rushing home to eat lunch I realized that I can be extremely starving and go home to eat just about anything, but this man doesn't have that luxury. Then I decided to make him a lunch. On my way back down to see him though, he was gone. So today, I went for attempt number two. My boyfriend drove me down, just to be safe, and as soon as we pulled over the man rushed over with an excited look. It made me so happy to see him excited over a grocery bag without knowing what its contents were. Without opening it, he gently took it from me with a smile and made sure to say "thank you" about five times. Once he felt that there was a decent amount of food and goodies in the bag, he said thank you just as many times, but this time added "God Bless". That made my day. This homeless man, who wanders the streets daily and withstands the freezing cold temperatures at night, made my entire day. Now I didn't post this to flaunt my "good deed of the day", I posted this to show how much of an impact giving has. I took five minutes out of my day to make a lunch and throw in some extra things for a complete and total stranger, and not only did it make my day, but his as well. Just think how much better this world would be if people would help out those less fortunate, just because they wanted to help. Not because they were forced to, or wanted to be recognized for it, but just because they were being kind.

Best friend!

So I'm staying the night at my bestie Alexa's house tonight, and I am SO excited! We used to be really good friends in middle school, but then we sort of fell apart. Tonight is our second time hanging out in forever, but we're going to be crafty and make jewelry! I can't wait! :D

This is a super old picture that she posted on her blog, so now it's my turn to post it on mine! This was one of the last times we hung out, and we're about 13 and 14! It's crazy to think how that was only five years ago!

Red in the face.

I have to have the most obnoxious thing in the world. I don't even really know what you'd call it, but my face turns some crazy shade of red at the most random times. It's terrible. It used to just be when I was in front of a crowd or when all of the attention was directed towards me, but now it's becoming a common thing. 

It's bad enough that I think everyone disagrees with my thoughts and actions. But to have my face show it every time I feel the least bit insecure, well that's just fantastic.

Lately

Things have been strange. I'm constantly getting emotional over the smallest things, and I feel as though I cannot do anything right. And let me tell you, it sucks. I used to be so carefree and outgoing, and now I barely do anything. I sit on my laptop and iPod all day long, how boring is that?

I've started talking to an old friend from middle school again though, and it's cool because she is extremely down to earth. We've only hung out once, but it was fun to be out. Alexa is extremely creative too, and a huge inspiration to me since she has amazing photography and writing skills. Two things I wish I was better at.

But anyways, I'm new at this whole blog thing. Lately though, it just seemed like it'd be a good idea and maybe even help some. I've had so many crazy thoughts in my head, it's good for me to get them all out. And maybe this will help improve my writing skills too! It could be a win-win situation :P